Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Trying to Find the Blessing?


I have SO many blessings in MY life, I should NEVER complain! However, my dad was diagnosed last week with Parkinson's Disease and this has devastated me. I can remember as a young child thinking my dad was invincible, I actually still find some truth to this. As I have gotten older I still live in the fantasy that my parents are going to be healthy forever. I can't ever imagine my life without my daddy, he has been my hero my whole life. I know what you are thinking, Parkinson's doesn't kill you, I know that, but it sure does change your life forever. My dad has been a coach for 43 years and that is what keeps him young and active. He doesn't get around as quickly as he did in the past, but it is what keeps him going each and every day (besides my kids). I find myself sitting around feeling sorry for myself, as if I am the one with the diagnosis. I am not quite sure how to take all of this in. He has started on meds and is optimistic, but I still need some convincing. I am trying to find the "silver lining" in all of this, easier said then done. I do believe everything happens for a reason, just trying to take it all in and digest what is happening here! My blessing is my daddy and I guess for now I need to take one day at a time and enjoy every single moment I can with him!!! My wish for him is for him to not suffer through this, but to continue living and loving life as it comes his way!!! And in the meantime, I need to do the same as I continue to find the blessing in this!!

2 comments:

2 Cute Boys said...

So sorry to hear this. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family as you cope with all of this and try to make sense of it all. BTW, your dad was Brady's (my hubby) coach in HS, so he sends his best as well. Small world!

Lisa said...

I am so sorry to hear about the diagnosis! You have a beautiful outlook on life Kaci and your dad sounds like one special man. I have added him and your family to my prayer list!